Dreams

Crawling back to past, letting lose my soul, I sit by the window and drink the voyage

Voyage of a simple story, tragic surpasses, rough traces, can’t put my finger on one, what to see, little bit of colors, so messed up
Like a bus, venturing through the city, lots of stories passing by, but not to tell out loud
So many ifs in mind, so much reality to seek, I hold my breath and take a sip from my favourite mug
Wrongdoings, disastrous times, the patience unbearable, losing one’s individuality, the road seems so long, why want it short

What to see, what to hear, is it worthy?

I want to live it all, how might uncanny it seems
To sit with a person who ain’t good with friends, or who’s failing but trying so hard
I want to console a person whose losing hope, whose path seams so vague, with broken dreams
Venturing through the dusky streets, where even leaves losing their breaths
I want to look into the old souls, how they’re feeling the loudness
Harsh realities, what are they laughing for
Standing on the cliff, what am I waiting for

Reluctant eyes, trembling fingers, yet volcanic insides, why the concrete barriers world constructed around
I want to sit by a group and share a good laugh, go to places, without feeling unsafe
The routine is so simple, why they get so deep
I want to smell the drops of petrichor like a dream living in the reality

Feeling extra sweetness in my mouth, I look into my mug for few last drops of the liquid
Regaining my senses, a calm far voice, I glance for one last second, right before my eyes


One golden spark, the last I see, shattering of glass, the last I hear

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Eye of an Artist

Something about memory pulls off vintage,

Why something about breaking down
urges monochrome,
Delightful gets all the credits of warmth,
While excitement embellishes the atmosphere,
What if an excuse had a colour, I wonder
How bizarre it might be
If mock be the vibe, comfort seemed to be surreal


What if wrecking,
Rather dropping the tones, ignite the whole world
The splash of colours, the widen rays of hope
Rather than ending, become the starting
Building up the walls, breaking them down
Lowing the volume, turning the music up
Wearing warm hoodies, running fingers through hair


Picking up the brush, emotion of ecstasy
Palette of colours, mixing the tranquility
Pouring the heart out
All fantasies, dreams, wishes at one, all
colours at one,


Leaving behind the yesterday, staring up at the future
Putting it down, breathing deeply
Inhaling the life, washing away the agony


That’s where the time stops, rewriting the destiny,
Surrendering to the secrets of stars, an air of serenity





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Wanted to fly

And how that sudden moment acted for her but contradicted for others

How she swallowed the pain when fingers were pointed towards her, the wrong she never did

With strong will, yet, she stood at her own feet, still and stunned, while at ease were other

Didn’t know where she was wrong, scared what might could happen, while others unwind

Afraid what next was going to come, yet ready to face, as it was the only option

Behaving immature maybe, all the burden was so heavy, while oblivious were others?

In a matter of seconds, a mistake she never did, too far it took her, that doubting her own actions

Mental pain was so unbearable, triggering physical stress, others were laughing

What more wonders she could expected, when hope weren’t there

What more she could do to prove herself, to seek

With going with the flow, where might that path would take her, she decided to move on

But scared was she from the core, while others were bold

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Listen! for once..

I’m asking you,

For longer staying here.

I’m asking you,

Rather be reluctant.

So come over, till the moon rises.

So come, I believe I be seeing this light.

As its vanishing away or you getting deep,

Oh,

Vanishing to the life where I’ve long gone.

Next the door, door

broken all the mirrors.

Have they, they

succeeded to reduce the pain.

Now running away,

won’t be enough.

Don’t let the dark capture you

Stay, stay, today’s the only day.

I’m asking you, turn around. 

Turn around..

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From dire to fine, I vow to shine!

Once again I fell

I lost & broke into the tears

Once again

I felt hatred, I was ashamed, nervous & wreck

Once again

Trust, believe, protection, everything vanished suddenly

Once again

I drowned; in the eye of them I was no more

But I rise

Once again

Rise and held my breath, cleaning my tears

Once again

I collected my dignity, my pride, I regain myself, I found myself

Once again

Proving others for what? I questioned myself

Once again

Purity, sacredness, love

the One who made me, realizing the One whom only am I accountable to

Once again

I came out, ready to face them

Once again

Believing in Him, believing in myself, I started walking

Running, screaming, His name, begging for mercy

Once again

Not been pure soul, as a human, to gain His attention

Running, looking into the sky, feeling every droplet of heavy rain, I made myself clear

Once again

Wanted to be acceded, I held my hands up

Once again  

I vowed to shine.

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Letter

I saw you in my dream today, same as we were yesterday
Rambling about random things, smiling, laughing, messing with each other
Brought big smile on my face when I woke up!
It wasn’t just like meeting you, but like achieving something extraordinary
Making me feel safe, fresh & out of lonely state, you disappeared once again
I wanted you to know that not a single day has gone I haven’t think about you
But today, when I see that except Allah, there’s one very person who make me smile
make me alive, make me feel real me from inside; isn’t with me, I ain’t able to hold my tears back
I am not able to thank enough Allah for giving me you
There comes some space between us, why this harsh world had to do this
I want you to know that
When you’re around me, I feel free
When you both used to mess with me, though I literally hated it, but miss it
When you used to eat my favorite food from the fridge without my permission, though I loathed it, but miss it
Our walkabouts in cold breeze, while you used to drop me off at school & make me feel useless, though I detested, but miss them
Our chilling times, walking, eating, fighting, through our whereabouts
Imagining other whole universe (sweet witch land) & remaining in them in order to get relief
Every night our every single mischievous behavior led us to something new
Nobody in this world can take your place, you’re my mirror, I can say anything to you
You are my hero, my inspiration, though you don’t make me feel like for once, but I know, you do know, I’m your hero too
I know you’re full of talents & remain motivated
But today I need some motivation to become an amazing person like you
Do me a favor! Stay happy & achieve everything what you want in this world & hereafter; for me!


To my partner in crimes, my Brother!






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Believe

You can do every single thing!
Just make it start with a single step and your heart, full of elements;
Passion, truth, smile, courage, interest, and support.
Smile! no one has power to cater it.
Do not make others overcome you!
You don't have to prove others.
Why to prove? We're here only to prove ourselves to only One.
Stressing for what?
Overcome your fear.
We're not questionable to others but One.
Why copy? Be yourself. What you are! You're amazing.
Deal with it!

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